as warm as the sun as silly as fun as cool as a tree as scary as the sea as hot as fire cold as ice sweet as sugar and everything nice as old as time as straight as a line as royal as a queen as buzzed as a bee as stealth as a tiger as smooth as a glider pure as a melody pure as i want to be
all i wanna be is everything at once
- Lenka. (everything at once)
Guess who's back at Starbucks?? I'm back to my old ways and spending obscene amounts on Starbucks coffee again. In true over-sharing spirit: I'm right now sitting outside and sipping on a cold frapp in a bid to combat the heat. But all that's happening is my caramel frapp is melting. :(
Mandatory shot of/at Starbucks:
So, in other news: I am a COMPULSIVE Pinner. I pin EVERYDAY. EvenwhenmyexamisinafewhoursandIhavethreechaptersoutofeighttotallyunstudied. To keep track of my pinning escapades and to reward me for my pinning valor, check out: pinterest.com/steffiiyee
And in other, other news: (Bear with me while I rant about school for a bit.) Today's corp reporting & financial analysis paper was just HORRID. OK can't say I thought it was gonna be good... since I barely did any studying (whoopsies?) but WOW. Srsly?! T__T NOTHING CLD BALANCE AND I RESORTED TO PULLING RANDOM NUMBERS AND PERFORMING MATHEMATICAL FUNCTIONS AT WHIM. I tried to tap into the brainwaves of the smart scholars sitting around me but my connection must've been bad. So I took a deep breath and continued subjecting random numbers to arbitrary mathematical functions while chewing on mentos after mentos. My best friend used to devour mentos like a monster and I really miss her. I don't know if she still eats a lot of mentos. Anyways if I survive this (when? I survive this), it will be A HUNDRED AND INFINITYYY PERCENT because of god's grace. Omg. Mark 11:23. is going pull me thru. Also FYI I really reallyFCAN'T WAIT FOR SUMMER. (end of school rant)
OMG GOTTA GET ONE OF THESE.
Summer's coming, I can smelllll it. Tiiime to get sillyyy! I wonder what this summer has in store for me. ;)
thanks to ☞☞ c-lassy.tumblr.com & eyeshadoww.xanga.com & perfectbucketlist.tumblr.com ☜☜ x
So, guess who's leapt well & good on the Pinterest bandwagon?
100% addicted ♥.
It's like a whole platform dedicated to what I do on xanga! (and what I wanted to do on a tumblr but never got around to doing) Haha. There's just something about spamming photos in a wild attempt to express something that's eating at you.
Find me on Pinterest here @ steffiiyee
That said, there's still the charm of xanga posts that I'm not quite ready to give up yet. :) #nostalgic
In other news: It's been messy, and all that. But I'm working through my stuff.
Girl stood on the rocks with the water at her feet, the sun on her skin, and a tear on her cheek. With her hand on her chest and the wind in her hair; underneath her breath, like a beggar's prayer, she said "I miss you come back to me, I wish you'd come back to me." But nobody heard and the world turned and the world turned and the world turned. (And the World Turned - Gabe Dixon Band) He can no more "snap out of it" than a diabetic can will his body to produce insulin.
"There is goes again. That heavy feeling in your chest when you don't feel any desire to speak or move. All you want to do is close your eyes and sleep, because the process of being broken is incredibly exhausting.
You attempt your best to make your days fulfilling, but no matter how hard you try you can't seem to connect to anyone or anything. If you had a choice you'd prefer to be numb, and not feel anything at all if it means the aching would stop.
You have no concrete idea as to what to do or how to feel - all you know for sure is that you want to be okay."
Been posting a lot less ever since I went and got myself a twitter account. I feel like I should set up a new site or at least revamp this space. OH WELL.
xtc.
steffi: crazed by choice, believed to be a bunny, is a disney princess, has a lousy habit of oversleeping every other thing, does not deal well with rejection or technology, has a love affair with the stage and will accept love, money, booze or gummies.
i don't do drugs just hugs. (sugar coma leaves me high)
♠
LIKE TWITTER, but not. The final resting place of all my thoughts which escape onto the web. Not to be quoted out of context, please. Do temper everything read here with a little bit of good humour and understanding. I come in peace.